Thursday, 29 September 2016

The Bright Language of Dragonflies


Preface

I hope this collection is, in the main, light and bright, though it has its darker moments. I have taken as the title a line from one of Robert Macfarlane’s marvellous and massively influential books on his interpretation of the wonders of landscape, wildlife and our relationship with the natural environment which I have taken as key themes in this collection.

 

Contents

            Page

Flying on Rainbows – haiku                                                                                                          4-7

 

Bright Language of Dragonflies

 

Sunday Morning                                                                                                                               8

Riding Out                                                                                                                                          8

A Sort of Dying                                                                                                                                  9

Aurora                                                                                                                                                 9       

Our Animal Nature                                                                                                                          10

Ghost Village                                                                                                                                    10

Such Small Feet                                                                                                                                11

Weight                                                                                                                                               11 

Circles in the Field                                                                                                                            11

Luca                                                                                                                                                    12

Rice Field                                                                                                                                           12

Flags                                                                                                                                                   12 

Monsoon                                                                                                                                           13

For Matthew                                                                                                                                     13

Sweeping                                                                                                                                           14

Toy Soldier                                                                                                                                        14 

Tracks                                                                                                                                                 14

Leaper of Hedges                                                                                                                             15

Out of Step                                                                                                                                        15

Advance of Winter                                                                                                                           16 

Easter Day                                                                                                                                          16

Lessons on Breaking Up                                                                                                                  17

Pirate Ship                                                                                                                                         18

In the Autumn of our Days                                                                                                             18 

Guy                                                                                                                                                     18

Formerly Young                                                                                                                                19

Retirement                                                                                                                                        20

Legoland                                                                                                                                            20 

Pilot                                                                                                                                                    20

Guilt                                                                                                                                                    21

Belgian                                                                                                                                                21

Dutch                                                                                                                                                  21 

Italian                                                                                                                                                  21

Irish                                                                                                                                                     22

Cooking                                                                                                                                              22

Celebration Time                                                                                                                             22 

Children                                                                                                                                             22

Armada                                                                                                                                              23

Crossroads                                                                                                                                        23

Weight Loss                                                                                                                                      24 

Breathing Space                                                                                                                               25

That January Feeling                                                                                                                       26

New Hat                                                                                                                                            26

Closing Time                                                                                                                                     27

From Beneath the Awning                                                                                                             28

Our Glorious Summer                                                                                                                    28

Planes                                                                                                                                               28

Age of Retribution                                                                                                                          29 

One Liner                                                                                                                                          29

Pants                                                                                                                                                  29

Travelling Man                                                                                                                                 30

Jungle Beat                                                                                                                                         31

 

Whaling                                                                                                                                                32

Moonlight Dancing                                                                                                                          32

Newspaper Boy                                                                                                                                                33

When I was Young                                                                                                                           34

 

Hole                                                                                                                                                       34

Fred                                                                                                                                                       35

Colin                                                                                                                                                      35

Blue-tits                                                                                                                                               35

 

Native Tree                                                                                                                                        35

Potty Training                                                                                                                                    36                                                       

Dirty Boy                                                                                                                                              36

Devonian Days                                                                                                                                  36

 

 

The Fourth Plinth                                                                                                                             37

Celebrity                                                                                                                                              38

Bumble Bee                                                                                                                                       39

Garden Party                                                                                                                                     40

 

Wonderful Day                                                                                                                                 41

Walking Country                                                                                                                               41

At Dawn                                                                                                                                               41

Voices                                                                                                                                                   42

 

Daemon                                                                                                                                               42

To Keep my Fingers Warm                                                                                                           42

In the Company of Birds                                                                                                                               43

Sanderling                                                                                                                                           45

I Shouldn’t be Laughing                                                                                                                 45

And in the End                                                                                                                                  45

 

FLYING ON RAINBOWS

 

 

damp calm of autumn

the woods now empty of laughter

save that in my head

 

 

the whole forest creaks

a moaning in the tree-tops

yet calm and quiet within

 

 

bluebells in soft wood-light

luminescent haze of blue

lapping at the trees

 

 

frosty night tightens

street light damped by fog

somewhere a blackbird

 

 

January dawn

fizz and buzz of the city

rising from the streets

 

 

a flood of storm light

mountains fixed with needles of pine

thunderheads growl

 

 

glints of scattered light

everlasting snows

cast dragons on the hillsides

 

 

ignoring the wind

sun warming my neck pretends

summer has arrived

 

 

words drift away to

night sounds and constellations

I cannot name

 

 

 

 

I awake from

summer’s dream-filled sleep to the

cold ashes of dawn

 

 

tales from life at its best

told to amuse and amaze

now laid to rest

 

 

shrouded by leaves

a chunk of rotten birch wood

rescued from the rain

 

 

down from the high crags

a stranger reborn from

a world beyond speech

 

 

gripped by rock and stone

remade in tumultuous air

a different me

 

 

solitary maple

sheds a pool of yellow tears

so far from home

 

 

to welcome the children

to the gardens of Rowallane

chestnut lowers her arms

 

 

on a mountain peak

sudden crackle of lightning -

rapid descent

 

 

in the failing light

their loyalties displaying

pipe band marches on

 

 

at Spelga dam

the laws of science defied –

could it be fairies

 

 

 

here men of granite

maintained body and soul

working the Mourne Wall

 

 

tombed on this hillside

in the company of saints

on this blessed isle

 

 

wild cherry dressed

in a gown of blossom throws

confetti to the breeze

 

THE BRIGHT LANGUAGE OF DRAGONFLIES

 

 

 

SUNDAY MORNING

 

Listening for the first familiar bells

to ring across the morning

summon the sun to rise.

No sound but the birds’

faint stirrings in the blossom-laden trees

where bouquets of time hang expectantly

among fresh new leaves

exuding scents of freedom, wholesome possibility.

 

It was present in my childhood

breaking fast over an open fire when

something less hurried, less damning was in the air.

 

Cuckoos calling across the dale were also waiting

for the first church bells where I stored my soul.

 

Something of Easter day opened every Sunday morning

a frisson of understanding, calm and round and warm

on hearing those first bells ring

eternity all around me in the sunshine

until the silence – all rung out.                                                                                                2013

 

 

 

 

RIDING OUT

 

Just to ride

sun on chrome

wind in my face

escaping house arrest,

the airless cell,

slow accumulation of dust.

To pull out the bars with a leathered fist

and off

just to ride into the night and beyond.

 

Suddenly the heavens open to me.

I can see the stars clearly and

even glimpse the shimmering veils

of aurora.                                                                                                                                         2009

 

 

 

A SORT OF DYING

 

Muffled sound

glottal whimpers

bubble into the pasty frightened air.

 

No reaction as a drill kicks off somewhere

gnawing through the tension

not even when she rustles in, prim and starched

slicing the air with her crisp uniform  -

really only a girl - full of answers

though none robust enough

to shred the anxiety

embroidered on the shroud,

the crocheted squares sewn together to make a life.

 

A ripple of mirth squeezes through the door

an impudent cavorting just metres

from this lingering of limbs and sightless eyes

the gape that cannot say hello or goodbye

nor recall that lost love you prayed would be restored;

but perhaps to feel the stroking of her hair.

 

From a corner prayers ascend and briefly float then

where do they go?

Like unused hosts waiting to be consumed

or just to stay in the heart of the deliverer –

and that may be enough.

 

The eyes were closed that once read music

as it left the keys and rose like paper lanterns

fading with the pain or the fear

of something gathering in the shadows.                                                                                            2014

 

 

 

 

AURORA

 

Out of the spirit world

phantasmic displays

shimmering out of nothingness

green-veiled dancers their

beauty sculpted from silence.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

OUR ANIMAL NATURE

 

The walls of the chamber were damp,

a cathedral etched from amphibian stone,

tendrils and membranes

of a carcass blown and splayed

still dreaming of its long-ago river of birth;

a ferric smell of deep earth

a bloom of ammonia on the steady humid air.

 

We move deeper through dark entrails

trying not to crack our skulls or

slip on wet stone or lose the clot of light -

our guiding star,

as shadows dart and lope

reminders of our vulnerability

in this abandoned place, solemn, sacred,

our protection from the wild,

nourishment to our creativity

where we may only offer whispers.

 

Aware of that cold touch, I steady myself

with the sound of my breathing

and wonder at the glyphs and

petrified links to the world above

at the synaptic leaps that have sought solution

in tricks of the light

moving us on with our animal nature

until our age of forgetting.                                                                                                        2015

 

 

 

 

GHOST VILLAGE

 

Lichen has gripped the low ruins

where stone has slipped from abandoned stone.

The hearth now welcoming the sky,

while grassy ways tell of feet and wheel

and blood and sweat

and try hard to remember why.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

SUCH SMALL FEET

 

Such small feet

such modest footprints in the sand

such worked fingers as I knew as a child

that baked and tended

that knew the war;

hands of everymum

that rippled the keys in rare moments

and lost themselves in delight,

that now drag wearily round the clock

through crescendos of pain and lucidity and fear

that pass in cloudbursts across her skin

her face, her smile,

through the girlish laughter in

eyes that once twinkled

in the voice I still carry with me

in deep impressions in my heart –

those modest tunes lost

such modest footprints long gone.

 

 

 

 

WEIGHT

 

There goes that man in the battered suit

bow tie and braces;

the woman alone in the café

we thought was a spy

stirring thoughts long gone cold.

There goes that young chap

we’ve seen many times before

buying fuel and roses;

and here are we

nowadays looking older;

none of us able to guess

the weight on others’ shoulders.

 

 

 

 

CIRCLES IN THE FIELD

 

The field conceals a secret

forgotten since the world

of ancient movements

and constructions,

abiding by ancient laws and customs

disclosed only to the sky.

 

LUCA

 

Our new-born grandson

swaddled in his cot

looking perfectly happy

and holy cow

I’m not sure how

but I’ve managed to change his nappy!

 

While the sun is about

I’d take him out

wrapped all snugly-wuggly

but a problem has accrued

in that I haven’t got a clue

how to collapse his buggy.

 

He’s not long had his dinner –

Scotch broth certainly a winner-

though most of it is patterning my shirt.

I’ll be glad when he is older

no more puking on my shoulder

or dampening my trousers with a squirt.

 

He’ll soon be sitting up

with his Tommee Tipee cup

making magic meals on his cooker

and we’ll all play along

tea and biscuits all day long

and thank the Lord he sent us baby Luca.

 

 

 

 

RICE FIELD

 

This land – dust dry

in midday heat slinking by

thirsting after the drips and  

small gloups of the paddle

silent as the sun is high.

 

 

 

 

FLAGS

 

Flaunting their flags in a frenzy of hate

they who talk of a holy war

deal only in lies.

 

 

MONSOON

 

Cloud mountains move in

bruised in passage across a brooding sea

faint stirring of the languorous palms

a restless yearning for the break

from incessant heat and burning sun.

Breeze upon breeze causing commotion

among the surf and the crows;

an expectant calm thickens the gloom

cools the skin.

Gutters and the children wait open-mouthed

but no rain falls.

 

From my balcony

she moves, a proud ship in full sail

the drapes of her sari glide and swing

with barely a sound.

 

Time out of focus,

day to day, no-one seems to notice her

waiting.

 

Minutes swing by like hours

perhaps thinking of a long lost love

waiting for a call.

 

 

 

 

FOR MATTHEW

 

In growing light of dawn

you brought me to your house

welcomed me to your world

in which I dwelt awhile

feeling my rough skin peel

sampling new meats

learning how to become

relishing how to be.

 

And now on evenings I’ve returned

my dishevelled room seems meaner,

shabbier, the dust lying thicker than before,

air stale and water bitter

sand between my teeth

exposed and weak in the low voltage glow

that turns the walls yellow

then severs like a knife to leave me

with my only light, the stars.                                                                                                    2013

 

SWEEPING

 

Sweeping woman

caught in a pre-dawn headlamp

scraping the dust from the village

before the hot frenzy of morning.

 

Sweeping woman

caught in sulphurous midday torpor

scraping diesel sweat from her skin

to the rattle and buzz of the swarm.

 

Sweeping woman

caught in the crossfire of the setting sun

scraping rice from the sacred floor

where once shone a blessing

but where bright light shines no more.                                                                               2011

 

 

 

 

TOY SOLDIER

 

From behind the top shelf row of books

she brought out hidden things:

a small smooth shell

and many spiky ones,

a set of contact lenses lost long ago

when she was but a girl;

broken crucifix on a string of beads

tarnished gilt;

toy soldier leaden and peeling

broken gun, twisted bayonet

the one she had loved the best.                                                                                                            2012

 

 

 

 

TRACKS

 

There exists in a strip of woodland

A section of track,

Of no particular gauge, but a metre long

Embedded in earth

Bygone relic of the stone age

Connected to nowhere but the past.

 

 

 

 

 

LEAPER OF HEDGES

 

In my prime I used to be

a leaper of hedges

shoulder height to a boy

I would make my run

having gauged the point of take-off nicely

and the angle of approach;

deep breath before springing from the  right foot

rising and rolling with the air

to tumble on the far side

in a cushion of grass

rising to my unwitnessed glory

and all in the space of a second

challenge met and won

a new and secret kind of mastery.

 

Then one day I was challenged by my pride

to leap in reverse

from soft lawn to unyielding slab.

I made my run

having gauged the take-off point

but not my landing

and as I sprang and rose

I knew I would not roll in the air

nor tumble and leap to glorious finale.

I almost cleared the hedge

thickset with haw and spike

but caught and fell.

 

As I inspected cuts and grazes

looking for observers who might have scoffed

I limped home forever more

knowing that as I grew

so would the hedge

and that somewhere in future

the hedge would win.

 

 

 

 

OUT OF STEP

 

Trying to follow the warp and weft of my own thoughts

I am out of step.

The pattern that guides has discoloured

blistered and surreal -

not the shroud I want to wrap myself in.

 

 

 

ADVANCE OF WINTER

 

Old age was gaining on me

spreading irritation,

frustration

helpless to resist the frailty of bone

the slackness of sinew

in truth - to compromise

to abandon the distant hill

for the cottage garden.

 

Nothing was said,

avoiding those hard words

that could cut glass

hoping that by not saying

it would fade away,

by leaving it would not happen

but oaks falling unseen to the forest floor

still make sound.

 

The inexpressible was drifting into the room

like woodsmoke from a growing fire

and the elephant began to stir.

 

 

 

 

EASTER DAY

 

Such a watercolour morning

the brightest tints of heaven’s art

brushstrokes calm as the dew is fresh.

 

Faint stirrings of a breeze make

even the gnarled old olives smile –

such a fine day in the garden,

such a great day for a resurrection.

So gentle breezes,

lest you gather without warning

do not put a chill in my heart.                                                                                                  2012

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

LESSONS ON BREAKING UP

 

This is the shoulder aged six I broke

trying to fly like fairybook folk

outstretching my arms like Peter Pan

but to crash on a stone floor was never his plan.

And so I learned without contradiction

that usually hard fact does not equal fiction.

 

This is the wrist and the thumb dislocated

as a teenager, by speed inebriated

when Dave Partridge’s scooter hit the kerb

and let a telegraph pole disturb

a knee-cap and elbow, a row full of teeth

as I landed on top with the bike underneath.

 

It took a hard brush and vivacious young nurse

to remove the road from my wounds while I cursed

that I hadn’t invested in a strong set of leathers

but still, lucky not to be flexing my angelic feathers

and despite the discomfort and feeling a fool

at least it got me the afternoon off school.

 

And this is the foot in my twenties I cracked

as a boulder of granite I carelessly whacked -

no beach soccer wizard I, no ballistic magician

as I winced all the way to the local optician.

 

This is the eye that I lost aged ten -

no Health and Safety way back then -

thrown by a jester, I caught the bat

that burgled my future just like that

casting a half-light over my soul;

avoiding the foolish became my goal.

 

So this is the person with wings clipped

leather-clad, bespectacled, buds nipped

who belatedly painfully writes to his Muse

about all the imbeciles he could accuse,

but not standing apart, a jar on a shelf but

grounded in his own shoes and including himself.                                                         2013

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

PIRATE SHIP

 

Debris of the human tide

stranded in time and place

given new space of its own

lifted towards the moon

a resurrection of hope

nestling upon the breakwater.

 

This is not just for the kids

a generous heart, a black pearl

that beckons those at sea

to find safe harbour and

rescue future imaginings from the waves.                                                                         2014

 

 

 

 

IN THE AUTUMN OF OUR DAYS

 

Days of winsome decline

soft heather still thrumming

with autumn kindness

slants of long light slide into

September’s sweet and tangy air,

mist over bare fields, jewels in the frost.

 

The sun has long looked the other way

as the heath changes her purple gown

flirting with the autumn browns

the polished bronze of the bracken.

Wild birds with the instinct of survival

spread their feathers and lift away

enacting in one day

the purpose of their summer: to rest awhile in Africa

while there is yet time.

 

 

 

 

GUY

 

Penny for the Guy?

Which Guy – and who’s Penny?

Has she fallen for this Guy?

Or maybe she dislikes the Guy;

Is he worth more than Penny?

How many Pennies is he worth?

Perhaps this Guy isn’t worth a Penny after all.

 

 

FORMERLY YOUNG

 

When I was young

old men had fought at the Somme

been torpedoed by the Japs

survived the Burma railway

served God and King and Country.

They had metal plates in their head

shrapnel in their bodies

and tales to make your Pringles curl.

They had a distant look that said

I always expected to die.

But now I am of that demographic,

as the smart arses would say,

trying to hold off the inevitable,

broadening waist and narrowing mind,

tubby guy in a Steven Gerrard shirt

but fooling no-one:

Who is this silver-haired groover

listening to new music’

trying to keep up with the latest faces

trying to keep a finger on the dying pulse

riding Oblivion to keep in touch

with the life force he used to have

rowing against the current

or drifting back in time, no longer young

contemplating backpacking but settling for a cruise

wondering if I will be damned for not

serving God and Queen and Country

servicing our own desires.

 

But then, ageing could be good, liberating:

it could be grand, it could be wild

cause nobody cares about you anymore

you can do what you like

haunt motorcycle shops ogling the Harleys,

peruse the deserted record stores

be the tubby man in a Gerrard shirt

Peter Pan or Stringfellow -

no-one gives a shit.                                                                                                                     2015

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

RETIREMENT

 

What joy

to wake late on a workday and realise ………………..I am

Free

officially excused,                               immune from

having to                                    participate in the day

free to ignore the clock,

make grammatical mistakes and not care

to be happy in the crowd

to be a snoozing member of the audience if I wish

no longer the sing  er                                                                                                                     no longer obliged     to write the songs or observe the rules of com   position

free to drift                                               or not                                                    into oblivion.

 

 

 

 

LEGOLAND

 

Scrabbling through the tub

the dry hollow scratchy rumble

of assorted bricks

seeking missing links of an idea

evolving from a jumble of reject attempts

towards emerging grand realisations

on the fine structure of things

discovering windows and doors

 

from cerebral joys of plan, of form and pattern

to the test of simulation

the wonder of success

the perplexity of failure

spawning review and revision

progressing towards the happy repose

in the randomness

yet the logic of creation.

 

 

 

 

PILOT

I’m training to be a pilot - to fly with easyjet

I’m learning to land without bumping -

quite hard when dry but easywet.

I’ll be jetting about the continent

taking tourists to Paris and Rome

but when I partake in some kind of break

I’ll spend my vacation at home.

 

 

GUILT

 

You cannot leave it behind

nor leave it to die

for it will not lie down

and even though you may bury it

it will find a way anyhow

to creep out unexpectedly

and shout plain and clear

a reminder you were here

witness due

to all you have tried to erase

that will not die

until with you.

 

 

 

 

BELGIAN

 

There’s a Belgian come to live near us

he likes to show his muscles

makes out he is better than us -

hope he flex off soon back to Brussels!

 

 

 

 

DUTCH

 

Mr Boorman likes silence so much

though I’m pretty sure that he’s Dutch

he likes his house quiet -

perhaps we should try it –

his kids sleep outside in a hutch.

 

 

 

 

ITALIAN

 

An Italian chef called Bruno

boasts he is numero uno

’ I make my own pesto’

I said ‘oh is that so;

we buy ours in tins down at Tesco!’

 

 

 

 

 

IRISH

 

A wee Irish friend called Dugal

could play any tune on his bugle

you could take it as read the notes stored in his head

catch him on i-tunes - just Google.

 

 

 

 

COOKING

 

I hope I don’t sound bombastic

when I claim that my cooking’s fantastic;

my chips are a treat and such succulent meat

but regret that the cutlery’s plastic.

 

And when cooking I tend to get flustered

cause after perfection I’ve lusted;

I delight in my trifle but know that my wife’ll

smother the whole lot in custard.

 

 

 

 

CELEBRATION TIME

 

I’m wary of celebration.

I guess when it comes to the crunch

I could quietly dispense with the clothes that don’t fit

and the things I’ve been given to munch.

 

And with another birthday now looming –

well, and it’s only a hunch,

but I bet it involves Next and Primark

and Marks and Sparks café for lunch.

 

 

 

 

CHILDREN

 

Do you believe in children

though they bring little gifts like snot and nits

they are bearers of paradise

sparkles of glory

and carry in their infant hearts

a glimpse

of what the world could be.

 

 

ARMADA

 

The boy stood on the burning deck - his captain was aghast

‘I’ll teach you not to play with fire!’

and tied him to the mast.

 

‘It wasn’t me sir’ cried the boy ‘but the cruel and ruthless Spanish’.

‘Ha! You’ll be telling me next the wind will change

and all of a sudden they’ll vanish!’

 

‘It’s true, it’s true’ the boy cried out ‘There’ll be a mighty storm;

the Spanish fleet will be blown off course –

but sir, I’m getting warm!’

 

‘You can’t fool me!’ the captain said ‘Though I have no greater wish;

there be no storm predicted –

just ask Michael Fish!’

 

Right on cue a fearsome storm swept in from Biscay bay

too late to save the blazing ship

though the Spaniards were blown away.

 

The vessel sank, all lives were lost - no brave words in despatches.

The boy was blamed for everything

and accused of playing with matches.

 

 

 

 

CROSSROADS

 

Four roads met in a forest just long enough to say

How do you do, where are you going to? before going on their way.

 

Four roads met at a roundabout - they all spun round and round

‘We’re feeling a wee bit dizzy’ they cried then collapsed upon the ground.

 

Four roads met at the traffic lights but all of the lights shone green -

there was the biggest ever pile-up anyone had ever seen.

 

A man came from the council and said ‘These lights aren’t working’.

The four roads started to chuckle and even the man was smirking.

 

Four roads met on a hot summer’s day and one said ‘Fancy a coffee?’

But on the way they changed their minds and went instead to the offy’.

 

They sat by the kerbside and had a beer till one said ‘Hey, we’ve been boozing!

We can’t be seen here till we’ve all sobered up’ so spent the afternoon snoozing.

 

 

 

WEIGHT LOSS

 

Delivered by crane some days ago

my hope of physical salvation

to locate and tone the muscles

unused since my confirmation.

 

I dragged it from its packaging

then dragged it down the hall

nearly gave myself a hernia

as I pushed it to the wall.

 

I set it up eventually

despite bizarre instructions

but could not get it working –

not by luck nor pure deduction.

 

I tried to pull  the handles

pull the levers, set the tension

and all the other fidlings

that the manual didn’t mention.

 

Staring to get angry

wondering if I should kick it

I voice I knew said

‘Well done you. Get your own back –

that’s the ticket!’

 

She stood there in the doorway

hands upon her hips

looked at me in silence

a purse upon her lips.

 

‘I assume that that is paid for!’

she questioned with her scorn.

‘If not you can send it back.

You must think I was born

 

yesterday if you think

I am unable to interpret

this subtle little hint of yours –

I hope you think its worth it

 

by your implications

to risk our years of marriage –

a sodding great big rowing machine

now taking up the garage!

 

 

 

 

Don’t think I haven’t noticed

you eyeing younger women

comparing our chests and body shapes

and pondering whose needs trimming.

 

Well let me tell you sunshine,

and make it clear to you

I expect you to have lost three stone

before the year is through.

 

And failure to deliver

will reduce your Christmas cheer

‘cause there’ll be no roast or Christmas pud

and defititely no beer!’

 

Thus encouraged I set to

though it made me wheeze and wince;

my bum’s so sore and my knees are raw

‘cause I’ve been rowing ever since!

 

 

 

 

BREATHING SPACE

 

Your teacher won’t be teaching any more – the lifting of a curse -

wedded to the chalkboard too long

now, heart-scarred, is the view from the shore better or worse

a sinking ship

visions broken on the wheel

by the scourge of the agile and the lame

keel-hauled to an over-zealous whip

an inquisition seeking only to blame.

Though I’m inclined to feel

things will never be the same

the balance is towards the better -

nothing much to grieve

though a heart-felt plea: for health and sanity

let the body breathe.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 THAT JANUARY FEELING

 

Short days, longing for

the return of life-giving sun

restoring power to old bones;

dodging the blasted weather

staying close to the fire

though counting blessings on frozen  fingers:

too cold, too dark to mend the gutters;

unwise to visit inlaws on those treacherous roads;

far too blustery for a stroll in the hills

whose spectacular views can be seen on the News;

getting lost in the fog

risking injury on untreated pavements;

and certainly no point hanging out the wash

or cleaning the car –

there’ll be rain or worse within the hour.

 

But hey!

This means you’re going to have to talk ......

 

No worries – sure to be something worth watching on TV.

 

 

 

 

NEW HAT

 

Whatever’s that upon his head!

It does nothing for his bearing -

still he needs protective headgear

but what is that thing he’s wearing?

 

It’s not so much that his head’s too small –

He could never be accused of that –

Its more the angle of repose

And the circumference of his hat.                                                                                         2011

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

CLOSING TIME

 

You never say how nice I look

or how I’ve dyed my hair -

I often say how yours suits you

even though there’s not much there.

 

I ask you if my bum looks big

in this – you just say ‘no’ -

never even glance at me

then it’s off to the match you go.

 

You never think ‘It’s Saturday

never mind the weather -

let’s go down to Primark

do some shopping together’.

 

I wash and cook and iron for you.

What do you do in return?

Head off down to the bookies

like we’ve got money to burn.

 

You lounge around the house all day

slumped before the telly

admiring Carol Vorderman

and the flatness of her belly.

 

Equality of the sexes –

whatever became of that!

Well I suppose that I am equal

to the status of the cat.

 

Years ago you’d buy me chocolates

and once a bunch of flowers -

now all I get is an alarm call –

well, I’m counting down the hours

 

Till this relationship is over –

greatest ordeal of my life.

How have I stuck it all these years

with you for my wife!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

FROM BENEATH THE AWNING

 

A growing heat wave this July

skin so hot, lips so dry -

far too hot to weed the beds

tend the borders, clip the heads;

not the time to mow the grass

clean the windows, shine the glass

wash the car, deflea the  cat –

certainly no time for that.

 

Tackle the laundry, tidy the shed –

can surely wait till the kids are in bed.

 

Better to wait for the weather to break

though I could perhaps manage that coffee and cake –

just to wet my lips and stop me from yawning

lounging here in the sun

‘neath my fine shady awning.

 

 

 

 

OUR GLORIOUS SUMMER

 

What’s happened to our notorious weather

this long and glorious summer? -

Not a cloud nor breeze to disturb a feather

when normally it’s such a bummer.

And where have all the starlings gone

that splat my car for no reason

Probably pissed off to the south of France

Where hopefully it’s freezin’!

 

 

 

 

PLANES

 

Planes are coming in low tonight

well below the cloud

which is why I can see them waving

why the engines are so loud.

 

Sometimes I think they’re going

to land upon my roof

and if you don’t think they empty the toilets at sea

in my garden I could show you the truth!

 

 

 

AGE OF RETRIBUTION

 

And the earth gave forth a stench

that clung to the rocks

to the very air - even to the highest peaks

for there were no freshening breezes there

and in the rancid city of

countless million vaults

rich and poor locked their decay from within

and practised somersaults

to escape the skyfall that

filtered like dust in the mustard sun

till it thickly coated all the land

drifting foam, a scum

penetrating flesh and bone by

the smell and very breath of it,

and emanating from its very source,

the heart of man,

the cacophonous sound of the gnawing of rats.

 

And the Earth began to smile

at the rising of the sun

Just another day of millions

in the age of retribution.

 

 

 

 

ONE LINER

 

Can’t have a one line poem, they said, so I said this is it!

…………… though I’m sorely tempted to expand it and make words and rhymes that fit.

 

 

 

 

PANTS

 

Tony’s into climbing trees

and getting higher and higher;

One day he’ll get too close to the sun

and set his pants on fire.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

TRAVELLING MAN

 

They said he was a travelling man -

had sailed the seven seas

managed to stay tough when seas were rough

but threw up in the mildest breeze.

 

They said he was a travelling man -

nowhere he hadn’t been

from Timbuktou to Kathmandu

served his country and the Queen.

 

He once floated down the Amazon

in a genuine dug-out canoe

to search for rare animals while a bunch of wild cannibals

was eyeing him up for stew.

 

While crossing the Gobi desert

his camel near died of thirst;

he followed the track with it on his back

‘Bloody Hell, you’re heavy!’ he cursed.

 

On the summit of Kilimanjaro

he frolicked about in the snow

having trekked through the night to catch the first sight

of an African pre-dawn glow.

 

Had he ever met an Eskimo? – Aghast

he said ‘call them the Inuit!

They’ve a strong inclination to be called a nation

if they had a national anthem I‘d sing you it.

 

Trekking the Canadian forests -

just caught a fish from a river

a grizzly came over and so he moved over

and they shared it with boiled rice and liver.

 

He got on so well with the natives -

always trying to speak in their lingo

but if the going got hard he’d just take out some card

and show them all how to play bingo.

 

The travelling man was a legend -

such narrow escapes and adventures

that quite make you shiver – like when he camped by a river

and a crocodile swallowed his dentures.

 

But wildlife didn’t perturb him

though not well disposed to a snake

or a black widow spider with poison inside her -

if bitten there was nothing to take.

Yet he carried a small first aid kit

though no dentists around for a call out

and to drill your own teeth would give him such grief

he decided on having them all out.

 

He said he was a child of the 60’s

in Frisco he dressed like a hippy;

now in late middle age he suffers road rage

when he can’t park outside his own chippy.

 

When attempting to cross the Antarctic

chose his car over dog-sled or bike

although there’s no road, there is no Highway Code

and he could park it wherever he liked.

 

The attempt was made in mid-winter

forty below at best.

To enhance such a feat of endurance

he refused the warmth of a vest.

 

Which was the worst place he’d coped with?

His face muscles tensed and flexed

with no hint of delay he leant forwards to say

‘the January sales in Next’.

 

 

 

 

JUNGLE BEAT

 

I threw aside the tent flap

And felt the jungle heat

Quickly packed the equipment

That was strewn around my feet.

There arose a mighty howling noise

In the tree-tops nearby;

No ape or bird I’d ever heard

Made such a fearsome cry.

 

With pounding heart I staggered out

Into the sultry morning

Camers poised towards the noise

Then suddenly with no warning

Something struck me on the head

For my life I greatly feared

But by the time my senses recovered

What it was had disappeared.

 

 

 

 

WHALING

 

She threw aside the sail cloth

and felt the bitter cold

gathered the equipment

that was strewn around the hold.

Then as she packed her rucksack

she heard a mighty whale

thrashing in the water

something clinging to its tail.

 

Seemed like just yesterday, she thought

campaigning to free Willy

waiting for that perfect snap –

or one completely silly.

 

She quickly scrambled up on deck

to gain a closer look

at what the whale was wrestling with –

a nasty fishing hook.

Not fearful of the danger

she leaped onto its fin,

released the barb most carefully

and put a plaster on its skin.

 

The whale seemed very grateful

to be once more free and healthy

so much so, before he turned to go

they together took a selfie!

 

 

 

 

MOONLIGHT DANCING

(after a painting – The Dance – by Paul Rego)

 

The night of a full moon

we come down to the beach

to sing the old songs

to remind and to teach

how to dance the old dances

with the sea out of reach.

 

Men in their best suits

their women in frocks

dance on in seclusion

between headlands and rocks

in those timeless traditional ways

we’ve pledged between tides

till the end of our days.

 

NEWSPAPER BOY (Confession of)

 

 

Throwing wide the curtains on another frozen morning

I look towards my still warm bed and listen to the high wind warning -

dawn not yet arisen but another dismal day

almost succumb to temptation but duty got its way.

 

Flung the sack about my neck, pedalled off into the dark

trepidation where bad dogs live, their bite worth more than their bark.

 

A hundred papers later and frozen to the marrow

I’d cycled all the city streets – the crooked, straight and narrow

I can barely grip the handlebars but a dozen left to post;

dogs are snapping wildly but frostbite scares the most.

 

You don’t appreciate that hardship accompanies each delivery

returning home exhausted, windblown, wet and shivery

especially on a Sunday – so-called day of rest -

no breakfast till the job is done – mid-morning at best.

 

So on this day, I admit to say, and please forgive the blip

I failed in my sacred mission - dumped the whole lot in a skip.

 

 

 

 

WHEN I WAS YOUNG

 

When I was young

I trapped spiders in jars;

tadpoles on the sideboard

swam in a vase;

caterpillar in a box

wriggles an squirms

but not quite as much as

my vast collection of worms.

 

I used to get close to most crawley things -

hairy or scary or ones that had wings;

they’d be in glass boxes for everyone to see ‘em

all round the house – a crawley museum;

Each one provided with all they could need

but with my mum’s intervention

eventually freed.

 

To my kids I say ‘Come and look at this creepy crawley –

not afraid to pick it up, surely!’

But now I am anxious about scurrying legs –

I much prefer something that sits up and begs.

I used to brush cobwebs down from my ceiling

and tease my sister who’d run away screaming

so why am I mindful of such tiny creatures and,stranger,

why do I think that they pose any danger?

 

Mini beasts have always been around

whether lurking in bushes or close to the ground

I bet there are loads very close – go and look,

in your clothes, in your shoes, in the pages of a book.

 

I still sweep down cobwebs and hoover the mat

beat out the mattress and  de-flea the cat.

I buy mothballs and pellets and poison and bleach

squirt under the rim where creatures might reach.

 

Pursue any woodlouse down to appear,

Render it homeless, or at least fill it with fear.

Ants by the thousand , roaches galore

Better watch out cause there’s trouble in store.

Tip-tapping at night on the bedroom floor

‘cause now I can’t stand ‘em – can’t stand ‘em no more.

Though they’re always here with us

to the end and beyond

I swear I’ll never again

scoop newts from a pond.

 

Respect for all creatures, Attenborough preaches.

Well, I’ve read Tarka the Otter and I shun turtle beaches

but I don’t want to live among snails and slugs

or any other invertebrate bugs

that decide they want to live at ours –

they’ll certainly not end up in jars.

 

And when the creepies return

To my body worth tuppence

They’ll get their revenge –

I’ll have got my come-uppence!

 

 

 

 

HOLE

 

A hole has appeared in my garden –

you can’t see to the bottom.

If there were fairies or elves down there

I’m sure that we would spot ‘em.

 

 

 

 

 

FRED

 

I found a bogey up my nose

and thought I’d call him Fred;

I stuck him on the window-sill

while I was asleep in bed.

 

I sometimes take a toy to school

but now take Fred instead

and when it’s time for playtime

take Fred to show the Head.

 

At least, those had been my plans

but now he’s buried by the shed

‘cause when I woke up in the morning

Fred was dried up – dead.

 

 

 

 

COLIN

 

Colin used to be my friend

but his pants have gone all farty;

he came to my house yesterday

and ruined my birthday party.

 

 

 

 

BLUE-TITS

 

There are blue-tits in my garden

I love to hear them chirping;

I gave them fizzy pop to drink-

now you should hear them burping!

 

 

 

 

 NATIVE TREE

 

Once mighty native tree, once alive

breathing the hot humid air of the forest

shelter to insect and bird

that once knew the feel of snakeskin

over its branches,

the delicate tread of the leopard.

Once lived that has been sawn and chiselled

to make a womb for new life and the dead.                                                               2014

 

POTTY TRAINING

 

My botty on my potty goes

plop plop plop;

but I’ll spill it if I fill it

to the top top top.

 

Mummy says to stop it

it might slop slop slop;

then it’s slippy slappy sloppy

with the mop mop mop.

 

 

 

 

DIRTY BOY

 

My brother’s school friend came to tea and though he’s almost eight,

he let his nose run like a tap and splash upon his plate.

 

He didn’t have a hanky and incurred my mother’s wrath

by blowing all his snot into her floral tablecloth.

 

He finished off his pie and chips as fast as he was able

got down from his place and did  wee beneath the table.

 

‘You dirty boy’, my mother cried. ‘What would your teacher think?’

‘Well usually from this distance’ he said ‘I can get it in the sink!’

 

 

 

 

DEVONIAN DAYS

 

Below the surface of the land

and of time

forgotten tropical worlds

lie motionless but

bear our memories of trees,

shadows lengthening along the river

dipping toes with time

waiting for birdsong,

for the flit and hum of insects

for the lumbering maul of reptiles

through forests of fern and cycad.

 

But for now, just the sound of the wind,

a pattering shower to assuage the thirst

of future worlds, and the

occasional splash of fish in bright water.                                                                                       2015

 

THE FOURTH PLINTH

 

 

We first moved into the area

when they first made buildings tall –

they were like the very sea cliffs

off the coast of Donegal.

 

They provided nooks and crannies

and lots of sheltered ledges

 

it’s been standing in Trafalgar Square

for ages uncontested

so I’d like to make a bold case for

a patriot much neglected

 

avoiding the feet of posh-nobs –

even monarchs come and go

scattered by the wheels of carriages

escape by the skin of a toe.

 

When fires raged all around us

St Paul’s engulfed in flame

we retreated to the cornfields

but returned here just the same.

 

We watched our numbers dwindle

but no tears did we cry

no complaint when with no restraint

you made us into pie.

 

When searchlights probed the night sky

and sirens filled our ears

we still believed in crumbs of hope

and set aside our fears.

 

Against armies of pedestrians

we’re forced to fight all day

but all your nets and wires

have failed to drive us away.

 

I’m still around the fountain

still trying to strut my stuff

at risk of being trodden on

but this city’s made us tough.

 

Now you see us as a nuisance,

to the tourist an irritation

but it wasn’t all that long ago

we were an ikon for the nation.

We never asked for very much –

Just a place to take a nap

an occasional ruffle of feathers

and somewhere to freely crap.

 

And even as the east wind bites

there will come some lonely hag

from the palm of her hand to feed us –

only tuppence a bag.

 

So let there be no dispute,

of doubt not the slightest smidgeon

that plinth was meant for me –

your humble London pigeon.                                                                                           2014

 

 

 

 

CELEBRITY

 

Star of TV soap and screen

she often trod the boards

put on such performances

was destined for awards.

 

I’ve heard her voice so many times –

not short of radio fame –

plays intense romantic roles –

now what’s her blinkin’ name.

 

You’d recognise her husband –

politician, almost bald,

introduced some Bill that failed,

but what on Earth’s she called.

 

You’ll know her mother instantly –

a land girl in the war,

captured a German soldier

and hid him beneath her floor.

 

They fell in love but didn’t wait

for attitudes to harden and

as soon as peace broke out they went

to live in Bertgesgarten.

 

Had a brother you sometimes saw

play a pantomime dame –

not so different from life, they say

but what’s her friggin’ name.

 

Daughter became an actress too

renowned the whole world over –

You know - eloped with her chauffeur

and now lives on the outskirts of Dover.

 

Just recently in the papers,

on covers of magazines,

appears in TV commercials

for stairlifts and margarine.

 

But such outrageous demands she makes

weeps, with nothing to cry for.

I can picture her mascara dribbling

in a dressing room to die for.

 

Renowned for histrionics -

ever so highly strung –

child prodigy by the name of ......

it’s on the tip of my tongue.

 

Well, perhaps a wrap will be called

to close her final curtain.

She’ll get a lifetime achievement award

then I’ll know her name for certain.                                                                               2014

 

 

 

 

BUMBLE BEE

 

Hey, man on TV,

who simply referred to me

as the common or garden

humble bee,

 

Wake up, I’d like to say to thee –

I am proud to be a bumble bee.

I may to you seem like a flitting fumble bee

a plain Sunday roast and apple crumble bee

 

but without me you would have no crop

and the future of your kind  might find

ends in a full stop.

And do you think the price of honey would drop

if it wasn’t for the likes of me?!

 

So be thankful I’m no grumble bee

to see your honey flow tumble bee;

perhaps you could praise and reappraise

and yourself a little more humble be.

 

 

 

GARDEN PARTY

 

Welcome to the garden party

to the best, the heart of the nation

whoever from wherever

the bearers of inspiration.

 

Welcome to the flouncy hats brimming

in filigreed finery thrilling

to the brisk London breeze;

and to the shiny booted

the shiny headed and suited,

braces grabbing the creases

before they fall out in disgrace – welcome.

 

Managing the cucumber and cress

serviette in case of a mess,

petit four and cream sherry -

so wonderful you are here today

to celebrate in our special way.

 

To thank the preservers of

heritage and history, the

authors of crime, romance and mystery,

the poets and painters

musicians and physicians,

the dedicated ladies who serve up school dinners

the magnificent nurses, the Nobel prize winners,

all those fine surgeons of ear, throat and noses

now stroking the dogs and admiring the roses;

the entrepreneurs and vehicle exporters

the aid campaigners who continue to exhort us

the battlers and survivors

the deep sea divers

the volunteer workers

the widows of heroes

the Paras and Ghurkhas.

Lollipop patrollers out in all weathers

the carers of those at the end of their tethers.

 

So its cheers and hurrah for the flouncy hats

the shiny shoes and the novelty braces,

cheers and hurrah for the stars of the screen

for Wimbledon and the Epsom races;

and it’s cheers and hurrah to an upstairs window

while the band plays ‘in dulce jubilo’.

 

 

 

 

 

WONDERFUL DAY

 

Just how wonderful this day –

a prize that’s so amazing

though we don’t all feel the wind

or hear the vibrant birdsong

behind our double-glazing.

 

 

 

 

WALKING COUNTRY

 

The rhythmic crunch of boot-heels

disturbing rivulets on the gravel path,

sludging through the boglands

of resistance and judgement

connecting with the wild.

 

Heart and lungs, ears and eyes

seeking a means of forgetting

of making peace with pain

not to feel every cell aquiver

in anguish. But to feel ecstasy

flushed of material ambition,

desirous of calm, inseparable from this world around.

 

No boundary to mark where we met and merged,

death and rebirth open as the hills

to mystery and beauty,

in receipt of wisdom and understanding,

ready to begin anew.

 

 

 

 

AT DAWN

 

I’ll wake at dawn with diamonds in my eyes

to hear the cuckoo and the wren and watch my true love rise.

 

And I will feel the spirit move the love within my breast

and sense no ill nor pain, nor fear my day of rest.

 

For I never broke the fairy ring nor hawthorn tree cut down

but danced on the thirteenth moon of the year to wear my eternal crown.

 

 

 

 

 

VOICES

 

Children gather at my feet

and perhaps will bless my memory

with the song of angels, in the dark

their voices guiding me.

 

 

 

 

DAEMON

 

My heart is pleading: come to me;

this is where you want to be.

Fly to me low and fast

to your refuge on my shoulder

 

Ignore the towering clouds

the darting swifts, the open field,

the wind that pushes through the trees behind you.

 

Fix your brilliant eyes on me and fly

to where I am, my daemon

when things go wrong and the world shudders

frustrate the flight of time.

As I gaze on you, be salve to my grieving heart.

 

 

 

 

TO KEEP MY FINGERS WARM

 

It made my heart lighter

to touch the things he had touched

to be around his things

to share his appreciation.

No fancy possessions –

just stuff that

in time would find new owners.

 

I put my feet in his slippers,

sat in his favourite chair

shared his favourite malt.

I put my hands in his pockets

as I did when I was a child

to keep my fingers warm.

 

 

 

 

 

IN THE COMPANY OF BIRDS

 

 

ancient flyways

older than all the nations

transcend the ploys of men

from the ends of the Earth

to find that same small space

migrants return

following their flightpath

on a perfect parabolic descent

that ends in a splash

watching the lake

light descending from heaven

time and mind in the now

skilled in mystery

over vasts of ocean and air

the spirit of being

through innate wisdom

an over-riding order

to persist beyond our own

 

solitary bird

sings to the new-born day

to share its warmth

 

 

 

 

 

LAPWING

 

I only come to admire

your theatrical display,

your flouncing and tumbling

to lure, to deceive

till you get your way.

 


keeper of secrets

standing in the rain – lost

in secrets of your own.

 

 

 

 

 

 

SANDERLING

 

Darting on their pins

along the curling lip of the tide

standing alone

waiting for the secretive tide to turn

and leave something wonderful,

here they have laid their eggs

since long before we came

to eat our fish and chips and

slump in gusty deckchairs

or sit in cars sipping tea and

peering through misty windows.

 

Sanderling picks unheard

at the seaweed plaits

at the edge of the land

on the fringe of time.

 

 

 

 

I SHOULDN’T BE LAUGHING

 

I shouldn’t be looking in the mirror.

I vowed to take care of things

so I shouldn’t be playing cards

or Scrabble yet;

I shouldn’t be eager for the footy results

or listen to my music loud beyond

what I need just to hear it;

I shouldn’t be thinking of redecorating

or taking a trip to Spain

or stocking the fridge

or hosting a party

or laughing again.                                                                                                                   2002

 

 

 

 

AND IN THE END

 

And in the end

it’s the words in my head

at play with Emotion and Reason

a little bit of Fun to lend

that drip, random as raindrops

growing together in private Truth

felt fondly on the inside

displaying my perfect scent
and Sense blossoms its eternal season.